{"id":340,"date":"2012-09-10T09:29:14","date_gmt":"2012-09-10T06:29:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/?p=340"},"modified":"2024-09-08T09:56:42","modified_gmt":"2024-09-08T06:56:42","slug":"uks-kena-oppetund-motlemisest","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/uks-kena-oppetund-motlemisest\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00dcks kena \u00f5ppetund m\u00f5tlemisest"},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote><p>T\u00e4na on mul suur r\u00f5\u00f5m jagada sinuga Kartiini lugu. Katriin andis lahkelt loa oma loo ka siia \u00fcles riputada.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><strong>\u00dcks kena \u00f5ppetund<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Sellel n\u00e4dalal vaatasin otsa oma \u00fchele suurele Hirmule. Kuna ma olen ikka olnud \u00fclem\u00e4\u00e4ra kohuse- ja vastutustundlik ja s\u00fc\u00fctunne on olnud pidev kaaslane, siis \u00fcheks hirmutavamaks olukorraks on olnud minu jaoks see, et ma olen s\u00fc\u00fcdi millegi valesti tegemises, mis l\u00e4heb kellelegi teisele reaalseid summasid maksma.<\/p>\n<p>Selle hirmus olen ma ikka p\u00fc\u00fcdnud olla usin ja korrektne t\u00f6\u00f6mesilane, et ma, jumala eest, mingit jama ei korraldaks. Selle n\u00e4dala alguses sai hirm mind k\u00e4tte.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>Selgus, et ma olen teinud t\u00f6\u00f6l p\u00e4ris suure valearvestuse, mille tagaj\u00e4rjel l\u00fckkub tellimuse t\u00e4itmine julmalt \u00fcle t\u00e4htaja. V\u00f5ttis selja higiseks, v\u00e4ga higiseks. R\u00e4\u00e4kisin ausalt oma t\u00f6\u00f6andjale situatsiooni \u00e4ra. Ma n\u00e4gin, kuidas bossil veri p\u00e4he t\u00f5usis. Ehkki ta oli \u00e4rritunud, ei hakanud ta s\u00fc\u00fcdistama ega n\u00e4\u00e4gutama. Ta ei tee seda kunagi, no jah \u2013 varem pole ka p\u00f5hjust olnud.<\/p>\n<p>Enne, kui ma p\u00e4ris endast v\u00e4lja l\u00e4ksin, \u00fctlesin endale \u2013 stop! Ja k\u00fcsisin, kas ma tahan sellep\u00e4rast p\u00f5deda ja ennast s\u00fc\u00fcdistada ja \u00f5htul n\u00f6. patja nutta. Vastus oli k\u00f5igile sellelaadsetele k\u00fcsimustele \u2013 Ei, ei taha!<\/p>\n<p>Ja siis ma otsustasin, et ma ei p\u00f5e, ei muretse; jama on k\u00e4es ja minu masendus seda paremaks ei muuda; on nagu on ja ehk k\u00f5ik siiski veel laabub. Ja laabuski. T\u00f6\u00f6n\u00e4dala l\u00f5pus teatati, et tellija palub tellimust kuu aega hilisemaks l\u00fckata. Ja k\u00fcll mul oli hea tunne, et ma ei hakanud ennast muserdama nendel vahepealsetel p\u00e4evadel.<\/p>\n<p>See kogemus oli midagi sellist, mis reaalselt nihutas mu alateadvuses mingeid kihte, see oli lausa f\u00fc\u00fcsiliselt tuntav. Juba see, et ma otsustasin mitte muretseda, avardas sisemist hingamist. Kui siis veel \u00f6eldi, et h\u00e4ire l\u00f5pp, no siis see tunne oli veel eriti v\u00f5imas. Mitte eufooriline, vaid vaikne, kuid intensiivne sisemine nurr-mootor hakkas t\u00f6\u00f6le. Ma ei oska seda paremini kirjeldada. Ja omal moel ma nagu teadsin, et asi laabub ilma kaotusteta.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>T\u00e4na on mul suur r\u00f5\u00f5m jagada sinuga Kartiini lugu. Katriin andis lahkelt loa oma loo ka siia \u00fcles riputada. \u00dcks kena \u00f5ppetund Sellel n\u00e4dalal vaatasin otsa oma \u00fchele suurele Hirmule. Kuna ma olen ikka olnud \u00fclem\u00e4\u00e4ra kohuse- ja vastutustundlik ja s\u00fc\u00fctunne on olnud pidev kaaslane, siis \u00fcheks hirmutavamaks olukorraks on [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"_genesis_hide_title":false,"_genesis_hide_breadcrumbs":false,"_genesis_hide_singular_image":false,"_genesis_hide_footer_widgets":false,"_genesis_custom_body_class":"","_genesis_custom_post_class":"","_genesis_layout":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1,9],"tags":[51,52],"class_list":{"0":"post-340","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-uncategorized","7":"category-minu-onnestumised-ja-apsakad","8":"tag-kaotused","9":"tag-otsustamine","10":"entry"},"acf":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/340","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=340"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/340\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3176,"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/340\/revisions\/3176"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=340"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=340"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mottetreening.ee\/helinablogi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=340"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}